I fell in love with a dress..
You know how love is Insane, blind Absolute, pure Invincible, impeccable And adjectives further to add on On and on.. I felt a feeling same, surprisingly But with a sense of feeling of it all over me Head over heels.. Not with a person though But with a velvet left leg slit dress The gown that i had dreamt of For roughly two years, was with me Was spread, all over my body almost Tight at places and lose at the others I was in awe of it, i didn't cared about my stretch marks in it, or even me looking not desirable enough. I was happy with it, happy being in it I didn't know what type of love it was, but as some say, "love is love" after all.. And just like that heads and eyes rejected it, Many, fearing about me, "caring" about me By being sexist blatantly Concerned about me, with their what ifs What if i get raped, teased, harassed What if someone judges me, and my kin What if they think you are easy, what if they blatantly slut shame? What if, what if.. I cried over it, became mad somewhere about not being accepted in a thing that made me happy..about not being accepted for nothing after all, absolutely To be worried about for reasons ridiculous and shitty only. Why? Cause I'm what they call easy? Why? Cause i fell in love with a thing material only? Why? Cause the dress makes me an ingénue trolope? Why? Cause I'm a woman and we're supposedly oppressed and taken away life, before life takes us and deprived from the little happiness before happiness comes our way? Yes.. (P.S. May we all thrive, and know better than this, may we all not extreme our emotions negative on clothes for reason nil May we not be oppressed even though heads judge us, and eyes and mouths reject us breaking our resistance and making us cry..)
Shreyaa Tandel is a self-established poet, or you can say amateur poet, from India. Her poems "Inadvertently Alive", "Virgin" and "Blackhole" have been published in the blue pages lit, and vamp cat magazine respectively. When she isn't writing or is glued in front of a computer/cell phone screen, she spends time singing north Indian classical music and reading the Bhagwad Gita and pretending very hard to be happy, even though she isn't. You can reach her at shreyaatandel1526@gmail.com.
She is a regular contributor to Marías at Sampaguitas.
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